A walk in the garden

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I've been involved in online "communities" for about 15 years. a.s.b., imh, aclu kink boards, yahoogroups on kink topics, smaller and larger e-mail groups. I've seen lots of arguments, flame wars, pissing matches, etc. But never have I found a group of communities as nasty and arrogant as I have on LJ. But I figured it out. I know what's wrong here.

There are too  many fucking academics.

What the fuck, people? Do we really need a daily PC lesson? Yes, the Internet is worldwide, hence the "www". I get that. But someone can still ask a question about the U.S. and not be a U.S.-centric piece of shit. If a question was asked like,"How many poly households are there in France?" no one would get pissy about everyone on the Internet not being exclusively the domain of France.

The constant bickering, nit-picking, asshattery of so many posters on LJ is really fucking annoying. Maybe it's just the polyamory comms on LJ, but I really kind of hate it most of the time.

/rant

He loves me. And it's wonderful. I didn't always feel it. But I do feel now, and have for a while. But it still feels new.

Sometimes he does something tiny, something that he doesn't really think twice about, and it makes me feel amazing.

The part that makes it so wonderful is that he doesn't think twice. Because he LOVES me. :)

And I love him.

Love my life!

Stress is stressful.

Too much going on. Cannot do a god damned thing about any of it and my life seems to be in a constant state of limbo.

I'm thinking the universe has a lesson for me. i just wish it would spell it out clearly and let me move along. This shit is getting old!

I have lost the sense of order I used to find so reassuring, even if I knew it was all a facade. Now even the facade is slipping.

And I don't fucking like it, god damnit!

But I do remember the moment and I remember the sensation and I remember the bout of bronchitis that had me coughing and hacking and unable to function at work.

I remember rolling down the window of my black Blazer and throwing the pack of cigarettes out into the street in a grand dramatic gesture and never ever smoking again.

9 years this month. I can't remember the date, but I know it was mid August. So happy life to me!

Wedding: Fun
Hangover: Minor
Going back to bed: Now

:)

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that having the rug literally fly out from under you is even less enjoyable than I imagined.

Ouch!

The cast comes off in two weeks. And I see the Boss in two weeks.

These may be the longest two weeks of my life.

Chains are only as strong as their weakest links.

Know what I'm saying? I thought you might!

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I've always disliked Rush Limbaugh because of his nasty deceitful arrogant crap.

This morning I saw something in him that really clarifies what's wrong with him.

He keeps saying he wants the Obama Administration to fail. he wants the president's stimulus package to fail. He WANTS it to be a bust.

If he was saying that he thinks it will fail, that would be different. Because that would mean that he's looking at the plan and the legislation and coming to a different conclusion about it. But he'd hope it was successful.

I opposed a lot of things the Bush Administration because I thought they would fail. Not that I necessarily wanted them to fail. I don't oppose abstinence only education because I want the Republicans to fail. I oppose it because it's not going to achieve the goals we want a sex education policy to achieve.

I find myself reading and almost never commenting on lj communities. I start to write comments and then I stop, not because I'm afraid of being snarked or argued with or told I'm an idiot or ending up on dot_insert community here_snark.

It's because I get the sense that it's a waste time.

Am I too old for this shit? I used to be an enthusiastic poster on various lists, boards, and communities. I moderated several for years. I fell out of it for a long time and when I came back, I clearly saw the same weird personalities, arguments, and factioning that I'd seen in the past. Only the names and forums were different. The goofiness was the same. The perpetual victims, the snarky veterans, the smug experts. All online communities seem to have a share of them sprinkled in among the mostly normal people who are trying to learn, share, or both.

Maybe it's a matter of been there, done that.

But who cares. :)

Or did Cheney look a whole lot like Mr. Potter from "It's a Wonderful Life" in his wheelchair today?

I've been waiting for this week for eight years.

But I'm happier than I knew I would be. I am moved to tears occasionally while watching the coverage of the inauguration.

We have come so far as a country and I am proud to be alive now, through most of the civil rights movement, to have seen all the changes that I have seen and the great progress that we have made.

I am a sap, I know. I minored in politics in college and I have never missed an election, and I have campaigned for several different candidates over the years, and no candidate has been as important to me as Barack O'bama.

We have so far to go, not just in terms of the wars and the economy, but in terms of overcoming racism.

But DAMN! I really do have hope!

Got hope?

Fuck yeah!

I do love Christmas.

The night at my parents' was beautiful. Uncles, Aunts, siblings, nieces and nephews all were perfect. (Aunt Crazy was not present, which was a present!)

My kids (who are nearly grown) were happy with their gifts from me. I am relaxed and happy.

The Man I Adore is a little better and we may even get to spend time together this weekend. (Superstition forbids me from me more specific of optimistic.)

I'm going back to my parents' house soon for breakfast and then I'll go to Mass and sing Oh Come All Ye Faithful!

Merry Christmas!

It's been a hard few days for a number of reasons, the fucked up weather not the least of which. I made a pilgrimage to the tanning salon yesterday to get some light on my skin with the hopes of stimulating Vitamin D production and just generally feeling better... Let's hope it works. I'm going back Friday morning to get more sun.

Last night my sister in law demonstrated once again why my kids call her Aunt Crazy.

The Man I Adore is having problems too and there ain't a god damned thing I can do about it from here.

But I'm heading to my mom's soon with my kids and lots of presents and I'm going to do everything I can to enjoy myself for the next two days.

I really do love Christmas. Really and truly.

The last couple of weeks have flown by like crazy.

I'm working working working at home and at the office.

I've been watching the train wreck of our governor being arrested. I may go to this house this weekend and hold up a sign that says, Resign, if he doesnt' resign soon.
What a fuck head. I think he might be mentally ill. He's certainly delusional.

Makes ya proud to live in Illinois.

Asshole.